My Testimony
My Testimony
On today September 23, 2016, I conclude the
most important stage of my life. "Love", what caught me and
touched my heart like never before. My name is Rafael, I am a Venezuelan
found in the United States - Saint Cloud, my country at this very moment is going
through a very difficult moment where I am not present for many circumstances
but others are for me, fighting for that Peace that we want and we deserve.
This story carries a long content, but I will
still summarize it.
In 2007 my life began to change so today it
frequents a lot "divorces". My parents started a series of
problems (Discussions, Screams, Deception) Everything improved at the beginning
of 2008 when we made a trip to Panama, at that time I was 8 years old, my
parents presented certain responsibilities after a time regarding their
training loving as a couple, in a few words they wanted to continue maintaining
their conjugal and family status. Many will ask "What does this have
to do with me?" But you'll see.
In 2008, my dad and I decided to start with a
hobby that was a bit familiar, something to distract us for a while from Father
to Son. Everything was excellent until half of 2010, when I came across an
accident in motorcycling with multiple fractures, femur, little finger and
wrist ... I had an intervention after 1 hour on the way to a clinic where they
treated me and lasted a long time, while all this happened, responsibility and
guilt fell on my dad, everyone blamed him. Mom made her decision and proceeded
to the final divorce, not so much for me but for the way that Dad did not help
improve things, the months went by ... And I had several incidents, I fell on
crutches down some stairs and of course, they had to intervene to operate
again, in order. Last until 2013 with many problems, present chronic
pneumonia,
I had more than 5 operations, operated by bad
aesthetics, lack of bone, calcium, anemia and the most important, The
Traumatologist. At the beginning of 2013 all change, we managed to get an
excellent person in traumatology, I recovered and after the intervention in
less than 2 weeks I was able to walk, bad, but I walked. Then I started
very strong with the therapies and exercises strictly for legs in the Gym,
before all this my passion was to play football but thank God everything went
much better than we expected, soon after I started playing Indoor Soccer
Leagues with My School, after that I started to train again in Soccer but in
Grama. Things changed, my dad acted with me very differently, he treated me
badly and my mother for a long time was always on his side, I had many problems
to solve,
Because this is a love story?
Easy…
Before all this, God put something in my way
that takes advantage but defrauded, I lost and I was punished, in 2014 I met
the only and first love of life, we met at a party and without many details
months later we started being together, I remember every moment as if it had
happened yesterday, I feel every look, caress, hugs with just imagining it,
only entente ... Close your eyes and you will see how satisfying it feels even
if bad things have happened.
After almost a year less, because of my
family problems and because of feeling so bad about myself, I decided to finish
everything I did not want her to know everything that happened to me at home or
to experience things in such a way, I know that she was part of of me but still
I just wanted to protect her. With just this excuse I tried to meet
another person who coincidentally studied in the same school, I wanted to force
her to forget her, I was tired of feeling bad and missing her. She found
out quickly and went to call me, I felt so good, her voice so sweet and fine to
hear her but even so, I did the unforgiving, I remember that when I cried I
cried like never before and I knew that she was in the same position but I was
afraid of that hated me, I kept on passing the time and I kept seeing, I
understand that I made a mistake, I could not force myself to something of such
magnitude,
One day in a family reunion, sitting next to
me was a girl very similar to my new "partner", I said "how cute
it is" but those days that I decided to take some time, I wanted to use it
to reconcile myself with the love of My Life ... We talked for a long time and
decided that we would try again but when I got home I thought again ... "I
can not make the same mistake, what am I doing, my God?", At that moment I
decided to call her and do the worst I could to see done in my life, tell her
that my account was hacked, so everything was a simple invention, she knew that
I was lying but even so, she said "it's okay Rafael, I believe you"
we lasted several hours talking later and remembering things, but even so when
I hung up I knew that she was going to be Mal, we still talked by Message but
we said goodbye.
I wanted to solve things but I refused and
acted improperly, she stayed there until she decided to leave for her house,
when she left, I only stop crying in silence, apologize for her back and that
someday she would understand the reason of everything that. When the taxi
arrived, I turned back to see if she had come down or was there, but she was
not there, she got very upset and was pretty bad ... She was celebrating her
birthday but I was ruining everything as normal in me.
To summarize further, over time, we managed
to return ... I had written a letter telling him part of him because all this
and I really lied to him, he is crazy to be with her, that day he went to my
house to look for the letter since that same day I had invited her for a family
reunion, obviously everyone knew her and missed a lot, this was in 2015.
Everything was very good until the strong
problems, disagreements, jealousies and mistrust began, we lived the best time
that time we returned but also the worst, we experienced many things and grew
more as people. In the months we had finished again and but it was
something like an imaginary I am in the air, that "cycle" that was
there was never closed but I knew that she wanted to fix things. Well,
concluding this, I made a mistake very similar to the first time but, just to
get out of the lane and keep believing that I had won the battles, when it was
the opposite (this was already happening in early 2016). I remember that
during those weeks I managed to get into my Facebook and saw several messages
with the other person, the next day she went to my house to give me back what
she had in her and that was a long farewell,
By trusting me that she would continue to
love me, I was wrong, she loved me but not as before ... We stayed several
times in those months that we were going to see each other but I always
pretended to do something to be afraid that she would hate me and make me cry
in front of her After everything I did to him, in July it was time to leave the
country, but I could not see it, I went empty and knowing that I was going to
lose what I loved and loved the most in my life, days after being here, I try
to talk to her and reconsider ... So we are at a distance to return and I swear
that I would never make another mistake, that I was willing to EVERYTHING, she
at first agreed to me, she made me believe many things, like she still loved me
but very little not like before, he missed me, he loved me, but ...
The day Yesterday she confessed that she did
not feel anything anymore, I do not have anything more to ask her things and
try to know the reality of what she felt but she never answered, I felt such a
great emptiness, I could not believe that the LOVE OF LIFE I said that after so
much, I have cried without stopping and I have felt the most inept, guilty,
inoperative, idiotic, unsuccessful person in the world, I had never witnessed
being this way, I hate someone for cheating just for revenge "or the life
of many turns "
Many important things are not here, there are
no details, there is no depth, simply this is something simple and fast, there
is no real evidence of what we felt about each other, this is just one more
story to tell.
I do this because I would really like to
write the whole story, I want people to know that it is to truly love, to be in
love and excited about something inexplicable, to lose the love of your life in
exchange for mistakes or obstacles that life puts you as simple tests and see
if you can overcome them, I do not take advantage of them many times and I
regret it. She is a perfect woman, her beautiful eyes, hair, smile, her
tall and thin legs, her way of walking, her kisses, her caresses, she remembers
the moon house, each nail, each thing she said, her favorite foods, her
favorite clothes , his fingers, his flat abdomen and soft back. We always
had plans, things to do, desire and now everything has fallen. I still
hope to see her again and rediscover that love, I remember seeing her promised
to love her until the last day of my life and that's how it will be,
This story is a good basis for you to realize
that you will always have someone in your life and you have to value it,
"you never know what you have until you lose it", I thank you for
being in me, in my life and make me feel the happiest man in the world plus a goodbye
because I've lost everything.
